Motherhood. The most intense journey.

Motherhood.

It is the most intense, triggering and transformational journey for me.

No this is not about my kids. They are my everything. And I wouldn’t have want my life to go any other way. I do feel the need to keep saying that. Because this is such a vulnerable topic for me.

This is about Motherhood. This is about daily life with children. And for me often single parenting.

I find it incredibly hard; it never stops

E v e r y Day A g a i n

Even when you are going through your own stuff 😶‍🌫️

And I actually need a break
To be with myself
To only do what I need
To only do what I want

To not make any decisions for another human
To not having to care for someone else
To stay in bed
To only feed myself

To not answer 10.000 questions
To not mediate in fights
To not having to do bedtime routine when you are so tired yourself

To not feel the guilt of never doing it right
To not feel the guilt of needing so much more time for myself

To not be with others’ emotions
To just hold my own
Because they are so big already
And I don’t have the space to hold more

At the same time, I would have never been cracked open so deeply as on this journey🔥

Because there is no way out - the only way for me was and is to go IN. I have experienced so profoundly that in all those places where I am feeling exhausted, stuck, trapped, overwhelmed, guilty….

That is where the lessons of True Freedom are seeking me💜